I can't sing an honest song

Because I end up dressing it up

When did I learn to

protect myself so easily?

From the schoolyard you can see the sky

What colours affect you?

Just pure white clouds but,

In time you'll want them to change to black

sky chord

 Its not enough, sky chord

Even though we met here long ago

I've lost the sky chord

Its no one's fault but myself

There must be something more important

Than growing up

While I still can't find that

I'm definitely growing up

I wanted to stay awake till morning

When I was an impatient child

Now I'm chasing after time

If only I could do nothing but sleep

Even though we met here long ago

I've lost the sky chord

I want to teach it to you

There must be something more important

Than growing up

While I still can't find that

I'm definitely growing up

They say it can't be like this forever

I know that, so I start walking

The words I secretly wrote in my notebook

Aren't going to change

There must be something more important

Than growing up

While I still can't find that

I'm definitely growing up

I can't stay as a child

sometimes people just cant wait till they're older... or maybe they cant wait to grow up.. but for some others they just dont want to grow up... they are not ready to be adults...
its not about being matured or not...
 
but it means that you are not strong enough to face the challengers of 'growing up'...
when you're young... people adore you...
when you're older... people gets envy of you...
when you're young... you are loved....
when you're older... you love...
 
but it doesnt mean you are also loved...
it is painful to be knowing that you're growin up at times...
but you just cnt turn back time...
it is hard to resist the feeling when you like someone...
coz you grow up...
that is why it is tough...
 
and along the way...
you became more emotional...
every single thing hurts you deeply...
and every sorrowful event made you seemed so depressed...
and every ations of others make you think of many negative things...
you will never get to know the real thing..
but something's for sure...
when you're growing up...
you seem to be thinking negatively at people's reactions..
and all the bad memories keep on playing in your mind...
and you just cant hold it anymore..
you cried...
and wondered...
'why am i growing up?'
...
 
sometimes you just hate life...
because you are facing the toughest time...
but yeah... you have to know...
everyone faces this too..
and everyone had problems same as yours too...
but how did they survived???
 
for sure they had also experienced what you are facing...
and they must once have thought too... 'why am i growing up?'
it is not about their strength...
its how they managed to keep thinking positively and face each and every single challenge wisely.. and they must have cried... they must have been hurt too..
 
but in the end...
they manage to overcome every obstacle...
and succeeded in life...
though sometimes they thought.. 'why am i growing up'
 
ok dumb.. shouldnt have wasted my time on craps like this... but personally.. i think this is what im facing now... im just trying to think positively..
cross country is totally not bothering me now... its other things... which is more painful....
im sorry.. sayonara

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